Enjoy the Seasons of Life
I struggled to accept that my life changed when my daughter, Ashley, was born. At one point I found myself hiking a single track trail at 7,000 feet above sea level in Colorado as my daughter’s newborn legs dangled from a baby carrier I strapped on my back.
I looked over my shoulder as I side stepped a boulder and could see the steep drop off only inches from my feet. I shifted my weight in the loose gravel and could feel the heat from daughter’s little body on my back. She was sound asleep, oblivious that her father had put her in danger for the sake of maintaining the lifestyle that he had before she was born.
I shook my head in disbelief and my soul filled with contempt towards my own actions as I became aware of my foolishness. My wife tried to remain patient with me that first year of Ashley’s life, and finally I came around and accepted my role as a new father. I had to accept that I was entering a new season in my life as my family grew and I had to adapt emotionally to the reality that I had a little girl who depended on me. It scared me and irritated me until I found my rhythm and began to enjoy my new role.
I find myself in a new season once again as Ashley, now becoming a teenager, needs me less in her life and demands that I take a back seat in her daily tasks and activities. It’s hard to believe I once carried her on my back as I climbed a mountain in Colorado, back when she depended on Alia and me for everything. Now, she is becoming independent and making her own decisions. It’s weird that I was slow to accept Ashley into my life and now I find it hard to let go, but such are the seasons of life. We only fully appreciate them and miss them once they are gone.
I miss the hot and long days of summer during the dark and gloomy cold winters, but then I miss the cozy winter nights, when I find myself soaked in sweat in the heat of a summer day as I mow the lawn. We tend to long for what is no longer with us or to yearn for what is next in our lives, and forget to appreciate what we have now.
The stark reality of life is that our seasons are short and ever changing. Nothing stays the same or slows down long enough for us to realize their beauty. We must deliberately slow down and take account of what we have and to appreciate the blessings that our current season provides us. Each season has it’s restrictions that imposes on us, but it equally has its beauty, so focus on the beauty and embrace your season. Don’t regret seasons that have passed and don’t push for the next one. Instead, take a deep breath, stop what you are doing and take stock in your life. It’s beautiful and this moment will never return. Enjoy your season!